Holy Doubt

As you prepare for Lenten sacrifices, consider what Lauren Handy has endured and what she found:

One of the things I had to piece back together was my relationship with Jesus and my relationship to the Church.I started getting into the Word again and started listening to some podcasts, and just learning to trust in his mercy, and to trust in his love...

I wrote a reflection, which I've never published, on holy doubt — on embracing that it's okay not to have all the answers. The basis of it was in the Gospel of Matthew, right before the Great Commission, it talks about the apostles. It says “they worshiped him, but some doubted.” And then it immediately goes into the Great Commission.

And I thought to myself: “Here are the apostles. They're worshiping, they're scared, they're uncertain, they're doubting. And yet Jesus gives them the authority, and gives them reassurance, and instead of chastising them, he's giving them authority.”

And it really gave me a sense of comfort, that it's okay that I don't have all the answers right now, and I can relax in that. By relaxing in that, I was able to reconnect with my spirituality, and then it really flourished and blossomed in federal prison, because then I had an actual community I could connect with.

https://www.pillarcatholic.com/p/lauren-handy-is-the-sacrifice-worth